GOD_is_my_SUPERHERO's Xanga

Monday, November 17, 2008

Mon, 17 Nov 2008 02:46:37 GMT

Is.... numb
and i hate it!!!!!!

Sunday, October 26, 2008

Sun, 26 Oct 2008 17:29:15 GMT

I was thinking today about my ninth and tenth grade year. In those grades i expected my senior year to be way different then it actually is. Right now it still does not feel like i should be a senior. But i can't wait to get out of high school. My mind set for this year was so different. I would have a lot more things then i actually do. I was suppose to have been a lot more places and see a lot more things. But God knows what He's doing, and as hard as it is i trust Him completely!

Thursday, September 04, 2008

Thu, 04 Sep 2008 23:40:12 GMT

Today, was my last first day of high school weird eh?

Pray for me!

School was a lot of fun. Senior year will be really good, hopefully.

Overlook tomorrow =)

Learning piano pretty soon! Excited face!!!!

Getting better at Bass even sooner! YAY

This year will be good.

Wednesday, September 03, 2008

Wed, 03 Sep 2008 20:34:52 GMT

School starts tomorrow. Aka Senior year. Weird eh?

So i walked into the school for my senior pictures yesterday, and it doesn't even look like the ol' Hermon - Dekalb. Its sooo weird!

I found out, that i don't even need to go to college for what i want to be (I wanna be an LPN by the way, for those of you that didn't know ) I just have to take 10 months in an LPN class. Which i can take through BOCES in watertown. Thats all a little odd to me. No college education, but working in a hospital making anywhere from 12- 16 dollars an hour. So being on my own two feet, probably able to get my own place by the age of 19 is all weird.

Ok, thats just an update on my confusing life. Overlook is this weekend and i'm so pumped. BASIC at the end of next month! How exciting is that?!?

I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on

and there will be an end to the struggles

but until that day comes

still i will prasie You!

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Tue, 19 Aug 2008 14:29:36 GMT

Just got back from camp on saturday, and miss it alot =(

The people there are absolutely amazing, so encouraging and willing to do so much. I wish i would have gotten pictures, but my camera decided it didn't want to work all summer long =(

So this school year is gonna be very busy, with all the classes i have and trying to get a job. Wow senior. Never thought that day would come. School starts on the 4th which is a thursday, then overlook that friday. So i'll probably be missing the second day of school. It'll be worth it =)

Dude, i'm finally old enough to go to BASIC!!!!!! I'm so so so excited!

So not ready for summer to end, and school to begin! No soccer for me this year =( which means going to the gym almost every night. Thats if i can find 150$ for the membership =/

Friday, July 18, 2008

Fri, 18 Jul 2008 01:08:29 GMT

Wow, haven't updated in a while.
So if you didn't know, or didn't get a notification from you myspace or face book =P today is my birthday. And it was by far the best birthday i have ever had.
The people here at camp are so awesome. For those of you who don't know. I am working at beaver camp for the summer, in lowville. Its totally awesome.
Anyways, i got back from my campout this morning around 9ish? Walked into the kitchen to help clean up after breakfast. Also for those of you who don't know. I am a kitchen aid here at bever camp. the kitchen staff welcomed me with happy birthdays. and told me to go upstairs and get showered and relax. Twas nice.
So i showered, did some laundry and read. All of you need to read The Shack. Its a very good book!
Anyways. By lunch time the girls i work with had made a big post for me that said happy birthday, Christa Scott had made me a birthday crown and i got many happy birthday songs sung to me several times. 10 or more =P
But thats not the great part. Pastor Rick is the pastor for camp this week. And being the last day of fire side he brought Jamie and Julia up. Camilla and Liana were already here, so we've been hanging out all week. But anyways, i always wanted a birthday full of singing and worshiping God, and thats exactly what i got this year. And it was AMAZING!

Be praying for me. Life is a little hard and the devil has been attacking me in any way possible. But today was exactly what i needed

... I hurd that someone is engaged!
Doubt you'll read this... but Congrats Carina and Rick! Even though it was at the begining of this month.. I just found out this week =P

Miss everyone from home! can't forget you guys!

Monday, April 28, 2008

Mon, 28 Apr 2008 23:18:32 GMT

Vision 2008! If you didn't go.. you missed out on so much!

God really moved that night. We had a guest speaker by the name of Randy Goodow (sp?) Wow was he amazing! He talked about a lot of stuff. But the thing that really got stuck in my mind was the stories he told about the children in Asia. Horrible stories about what happened to children growing up. I don't want to go into details cause just thinking about it makes my heart heavy and brings a rush of tears to my face.

God, I want to go places for you, Africa, Asia, anywhere you send me i will go. HERE AM I SEND ME! Take me, make me, use me. For your glory, not mine, not mens!

After i got done saying that the devil came in and said, what if you get sick, what if someone does something to your body, what if you get killed? You know what devil its all for the GLORY OF GOD! not for men... but for the One who created me, who loved me so much that He died for me.

God gave me a passion to pray for the nations that night, like really pray for the nations, to weep over them, and not stay silent.

So lets get up and get going. Our calling isn't to stay here and waste time, its to get out there, no matter were you go. It doesn't have to be overseas its can be in your home town. Everywhere you step foot is a battle flied. And we need to save souls for Christ!

Sunday, April 27, 2008

Sun, 27 Apr 2008 02:27:51 GMT

We're a kick devil butt generation, kick devil butt generation. We're gonna stomp on his head, not stop till his dead, cause we're a kick devil butt generation!!

D to the A to the N to G to the E to the R-O-U-S we're Dangerous... What What Dangerous What What!!

Vision was by far AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!

GOD IS SOOOOOOO GREAT!!!!

Worship was AMAZING

The preacher was AWESOME!!!! Such a funny guy

but its now almost 11:30 and i kinda need a shower... Lets just say.. Worship was A-mazing!

I'll post more tomorrow!

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Tue, 22 Apr 2008 01:11:12 GMT

I decided it was a good day to update,

God has really been moving in my life a lot lately, and with that they devil tries to attack even harder.

Theirs just so many lies that the devil is trying to feed me, it worked (notice that past tense). Yesterday i really broke down, i felt like i was gonna make the same mistake that someone else made that was really close to me. Instead of rebuking it, i just believed it.

Today I had a practice with Dannielle, her sister and brother. I was playing bass. I messed up a few times but everyone does that. I'm slowly getting better and that makes me happy. But... i started to get a thought of... "i'm never gonna be as good as Carina or Micah". Its a simple lie, i may never be as great as them, i would love to and i'm practicing. It was a lie and i rebuked it!

The reason i brought up the second one was because lies start out as something simple. No matter how big or small, we need to rebuke the thoughts, even if the lies seem so believable.

I also want to write about church yesterday. It was awesome, a few people got water baptized, which is always awesome to watch! But there wasn't really any sermon. There was just time to minister to other people in the church. I was sitting in a row of guys, so it didn't seem exactly right to pray with them by myself. I looked around to see if there was any girl i could pray with, i didn't see one. So i simply sat down and just allowed God to clean out the junk that was in my life. Noticing i need to do that on a daily basis.

GOD is sooo Good!!!!!!

Thursday, April 10, 2008

Thu, 10 Apr 2008 01:18:30 GMT

Yeah, i know i haven't posted in forever. I was looking for something really good to post about.

So a few weekends ago, i got a prophecy, saying i'll be working in orphanages, and that i have missions feet. There was a lot more.. .but thats what i really want to tell about right now. Not saying that the other stuff wasn't important because it sertianly is.

God has been putting this song in my heart a lot lately. I've been asked why i was singing that song so much, and i wasn't really sure. I just really liked it. Today i figured out why this song has been on my heart so heavily.

I'm thinking 'bout other things I heard about today
All this week and tomorrow
And how these hands could create some better things for bettering
but you see for now I got my own things
I cant help it
I got too many issues I own
So I cannot help I'm afraid, yeah
But keep on preaching, preaching and heal the world
Lip service makes up look great

Do you feel
The weight of the world singing sorrow
Or to you is it just not real
'Cause you got your things
Yeah we all have our things I guess

I guess my mind wanders off
from time to time
Sometimes I convince myself
that all is fine in the world
It's not mine
Why should I
have to try
to fix things I didn't create or contrive

Do you feel
The weight of the world singing sorrow
Or to you is it just not real
'Cause you got your own things
Yeah we all have so many things

Have the habits
Had you
Has it been for long
Can you feel the souls behind what's going on

Do you feel
The weight of the world singing sorrow
Or to you is it just not real
'Cause you got your own things
Yeah all have our things

Do you feel
The weight of the world singing sorrow
Or to you is it just not real
'Cause you got your things
'Cause we all have so many things
And I can get past these things

Things in this world are not alright, there's to many people who are hurting in so many different. And this song really explains alot of things.

"lip service makes us look great"

.... we need to get up and do something about the problems in this world. Not just feel sorry for them.

I'm excited to see what God is gonna be doing in my life. He's so amazing!